Life is full of unexpected incidents. Some anticipated stories do not happen the way we have always wanted. Some days, nights, ways and fights keep repeating in our life. However, it can be pretty funny to look back to the past where many embarrassing moments occur in our days and nights, leaving an abiding memory that cannot be possibly forgotten.
The same goes to me as I’m one of the creatures created by God. Scientists call me Homosapien but the world would rather address me as a human being. There are many embarrassing incidents in my life dictionary and most of them are still playing in my mind. Oh, what a memory.
There was one day when I accidentally humiliated myself in front of my friends in class. It is not that I was doing something incredibly awesome or what, but I had made something that caused me to look stupid in front of others. I was in my dream; rowing my boat under a romantic blaze of light. There, sitting next to me was Tyra with her unquestionable beauty. She smiled at me and I automatically curved a smile back to her. Assuming that as a license, I began serenading her with my not-so-good songs, pretending the rower of the boat as a guitar. Suddenly, she moved closer to me, whispering to my ear something that I had always wanted to hear a long time ago. “I love you, Ben,” she said it smoothly, as smooth as the slightest breeze on that historical night. O.M.G. - Those were the only letters appeared in my small brain, causing me to be in the seventh heaven! I released my ‘guitar’ and stood up on the boat. With my whole heart, I spread my arms, closed my eyes and expressed as loud as I could, “Oh, Tyra! I love you too, my darling!”.
Suddenly, the background song in my dream stopped playing my love sensation. Things went into a deep silence. At last, I heard a voice… Nope, my mistake! Not a voice, but a lot of voices! I opened my eyes, one by one, realizing I was not in my boat anymore. Guess what- I was in my class, standing in front of my turned-aback-teacher with my arms still spreading to everyone. My classmates? They were laughing, probably at me. Oh, no. Did they hear what I said in my dream just now?
I turned around and looked at Tyra. She was sitting at the corner of the class, trying to hide her red embarrassed face. Oh yes, she must have heard my romantic expression. My other friends were still laughing meaning that they heard it too. How embarrassing. My teacher looked at me with a smile and then the smile also turned into laughter. Mrs Chin tried to calm everyone while she herself could not hold her emotion. That was it. Tyra’s face was really red, and I could not imagine how red my face compared to her. I sat back on my chair and pretended not to know anything. Even though everything turned quiet again after a few hours, I was still embarrassed with the incident. I thought that it would be the last time for me to be the butt of the joke in my class.
However, my expectation was wrong. The next day, I found a letter under my desk. It was in a pink envelope. Judging from the look of the hand writing, I already knew that it was from Tyra. My heart beat faster unconsciously and my brain stopped functioning. I opened the letter and the last words from it caught my attention. It said: I Do Not Have Any Feelings Towards You, Ben. The words broke my heart into pieces. At that particular time, I was once again humiliated with one-sided-love. Yesterday, my embarrassment was filled with laughter but that day, it was accompanied with tears. I said to myself, “Oh God, I wish I never wake up…” Water crystals suddenly wetted my face.
Well, that plot of my life is now available in my diary. Every time I spend my time reading it, I laugh at myself and at the end; I regret the opportunity that I have lost in order to tackle Tyra's heart. I don’t even have a chance to confess my feelings to her and the chance of our eyes staring at each other. If I do have one, I will say, “Baby, look at your face through my eyes and you’ll find yourself the most beautiful person you have ever seen.”
However, I’m fine now (Obviously lying to myself). Though it was the most embarrassing and painful moment in my life, yet it still makes my life more colourful. At least, I have something to learn from which is not to sleep in class and dream about Tyra again. The best part right now is that I will never go out with Tyra anymore and I can go anywhere in my dream with my boat, as I am the only one left in it.
By Ben (Bahrul Ridhuan SPM Candidate 2011 SMK Dato' Ahmad Maher)
